I find that humans are realistic, true friends dont exist. It's always back to square one, back to only me. Maybe everyone hates me, i dont care. I think one day i will grow up thinking that being alone is all that matters more anything else. People forgot me, do i care? I do, but i dont say it out. Friends come and go, friends used to be the number one in my life, but no longer it is, no one bothers, so why should i? I really hate my life but what can i do? Life still gotta move on, no matter what happens. I see people always saying FML - but if they were compare to mine, their lives are way much better.
But sometimes i also do think that people got their own lives, but dont everyone have 1 or 2 friends that they always can hang out with? I'm jealous, why dont i have 1 or 2 such friends? Everytime when i'm bored, when i wanna find someone to talk to, when i wanna leave my DAMM HOUSE and find somewhere to have fun, i couldn't find anyone. Everyone's working or doing whatever they are doing. I'm rotting at home HOPING for god sake that someone would call me and ask me out. Once in awhile that happens and i'm always so happy.
Or is it because of my character that no one likes, but i dont understand, i dont find myself to the point that someone would hate me. I dont know.. As time goes by, if everyone starts to forget me, i think i will reach the point of not contacting anyone anymore, just be alone. No point, always make myself so sad that no one seems to remember me, why not just forget about everyone and just be alone.
So to the people out there, if you have at least 1 or 2 friend that you can always talk to and hang out with, stop fucking say FML because you dont understand how fucked someone else life could be, like mine.