Was trying to recall what had happen for the past few days. But my mind seems blank, i really tried recalling what had happened but i really cant. I guess because for this past few days, my life had been sooooooo boring that my brain doesnt wants me to remember anything. Okay, school's gonna reopen next week. Might sound weird but i'm so damm freaking happy! :D Honest speaking, this is the worst school holiday i had ever had. I'm dying to go to school now, at least everyday i had something to do and not me thinking of where to go everyday. Fuck 2oo9, a year wasted. 2o10, awaiting for you to come with surprises! :D Gonna go buy a new school bag on Thursday or Friday. O level next year, omg. Whenever i think of this, i got so stressed up. So worried that i cannot do well, really have to buck up next year. I cant fool around like this year already. I wanna aim for 12-14 points :D So, i can get to a better course in the Polytechnic. Most probably one of the IT courses. Havent thought of a specific one yet.

Bored, this coming Satuday i have home confinement. For god sake, of course not from my parents. But from my ACO (After Care Officer), because i breached my tagging time on Christmas Eve and Christmas and you guys should know why i have breached my tagging time. Dammit, i dont know what the hell can i do at home this Saturday. School's gonna reopen and i got so lucky to kana home confinement now. But i'm somehow happy, because i could have gotten a warning letter instead, my ACO even mentioned if i breach my tagging again, she will give me a warning letter and then recall with no hesitiation, but i guess she's just too nice and gave me one last chance again.

Days had been so unhappy for me. But well, what can i expect? What can i say? I'm nobody, so what i can do now is just keep quiet. Life still have to go on, life still have to go on without you now. I cant and wont force you to stay beside me, because this aint gonna make anyone happy. The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesnt want to be held on to. But i'm sure you are happy with your life now, happy even without me. I really wished you will be.

Because i know i'm nobody, nobody to anyone.