New Year Eve -
Woke up quite early that day, was excited to go buy the food for steamboat. Met up with Xiaooy, Marcus, Felix and Qianyi then we all went Rivervale Plaza's NTUC to buy the food for our night's steamboat. Bought off quite a number of things, had fun joking here and there. Xiaoboy, Marcus and Felix each paid me 10 bucks and i paid the rest. Everything was around 65 plus bucks. So, after that we all made our way to my house, everyone started to get busy preparing the food for the steamboat. Lixin and then Xiaopang came later, because he borrowed us the hotpot. I thought i had one but my mother told me that ours is spolit then i was like -.- Xiaoboy actually wanted to bring his, but ended up his father dont allow. So, no choice.. We borrowed the hotpot from Xiaopang and he stayed for the steamboat too. Started our steamboat at around 8pm. Had fun when we were having our steamboat and Felix kept eating the mushrooms he bought, LOL. Ended at 10pm and we were all freaking full and everyone was like half dead after that, lol. Everyone was like sittng at the living room, trying to digest our food. We were all sitting in this posture that made me think of it now of a pokemon character, SNORLAX! HAHAHAHA.. Then we decided to play blackjack to kill a bit of our time. From 10pm plus we played till around 12am plus. TV was on and channel 8 was showing some countdown party show, below the screen there were smses people sent to wish their friends and families a happy new year. So, i decided to send one as well. But, it didnt showed up, i guess too many people smsed to the show. But my message was -
'A NEW YEAR A NEW START, LET'S ALL WELCOME 2010! TO ALL THE PEEPS AT MY HOUSE, I WISH EVERYONE A HAPPY NEW YEAR. AND AND AND, THANKS FOR COMING TO MY HOUSE TODAY! LOVE YOU GUYS! :D - Milk'
LOL, but it didnt appear on TV. Was like keep looking at my TV, waiting for my message to appear but it didnt, disappointed :[ So, here comes 2010. Was not really so happy about it, although it's a new year a new start. But so many things happened recently, so there's nothing that is worth being happy about, for now. So, we played blackjack till around 12am or 1am plus i think. All of us went out to smoke and came back in to help keep the utensils, plates, bowl and everything and i started washing all of them myself since they are my guests and i'm the owner. It took me around 1 hour or maybe even more to finish washing all of them and i swear this is the first time of my life washing so many things and while i was washing up, Felix rode Qianyi home. My mother gave us a bottle of Martell, as a gift for new year i guess, so after all the washing up. Felix, Marcus, Xiaopang, Lixin and me started drinking. Lixin had only 1 cup of Martell and then we guys played 5,10 in the beginning AS USUAL :/ Followed by this game 7 Up suggested by Felix. I kept drinking at that game 7 Up, was damm funny. So, with red faces x_x we decided to play mahjong. When started playing, Marcus started being crazy with abbreviatives then i started to play along too, was so damm funny. Lost a lot of money, but i kept talking to myself in my mind 'Got win, got lose'. Jiali, Jialing and Pauline came up my house while we were stll playing mahjong. After mahjong which is already morning, 7am plus. Met up with Xiaoboy and Lixin then all of us went to Rivervale Plaza for breakfast. At first was okay, but after awhile, my mood got really bad because i was thinking of a lot of things. After breakfast, we all went down and relax for awhile. Super crazy de Jiali kept reminding eveyone that her birthday is 11 days away. Soon, Felix and Marcus left. Then Xiaoboy and me made our way home too. Once i reached home, i sat infront of my com and stared at my com for quite some time. Telling myself that it's no use thinking so much, because so what if i think so much, nobody cares and it wont helped anything so just screw it. Off to bed around 8am plus.

New year -
Woke up around 11am plus. I only slept for 3 hours, not because i wanted to. Because i freaking had stomachache and it was freaking making my stomach so upset. After finishing my business at the toilet i found myself so awake that i cant sleep anymore -.- So, i sat infront of my computer, picked up my phone and saw her sms. My mind just went blank, i was stuck with words and suddenly i just seemed to be lost. I dont know what to do, what i can do. And we continued our conversation on MSN. I have a lot of questions and doubts about many things. But i believe, what had happened had happened. You left me in the dark for 7 days, although yes.. Maybe you can say that you dont have the courage to tell me but do you know how much tears i shed for you for this past 7 days because i dont know what is happening and i was lost. I can only think and guess. You meant so much to me, that i have to think through many things seriously because i really dont want to lose you. But that doesnt mean i had never thought of being with you. And what you did was, think that i will never ask you for a relationship and throw me aside and be with another guy. If after reading this you are angry at me, i cant say anything. Sorry to say that, but i really find myself fucking stupid to make myself in this fucking state and the ending result was this. All you told me was because you think that i will never want to ask you for a relationship and there's a better guy out there. Then let me ask you, 7 days ago which is on Christmas you were with that guy. How about 8 days ago on the Christmas Eve, when you saw my note, what was your reaction? You act as though you didnt see it at all. And you dare to say that i never planned to ask you for a relationship at all? YOU DID SEE MY EFFORT, BUT YOU STILL CHOSE TO WALK THE OTHER PATH JUST THE NEXT DAY. I didnt know a love for someone can be changed so easiler, until now. And now i also know that the effort of being serious to someone isnt that worthwhile at all. You made your decision to walk the other direction away from me and now i know it's time to walk the other direction away from you too. I no longer want to stand at the same spot. You really broke my heart, the heart that once belongs to 小白痴.

小白痴和大白痴的故事就在这里结束了, 但是我永远都不会忘记曾经你和我的点点滴滴. The worst thing in life is to see someone you love, love someone else.