Slept at around 12pm plus today. Reason i wanted to sleep late today is because i wanna wake up late. HOME CONFINEMENT, i cant go out. So, sleep late, wake up late :D To kill time. Woke up at 8pm plus and was feeling dizzy, maybe it's due to my irregular sleep for the past 2 weeks. Well, Dad came home around 9pm plus and gave me a letter from my school. It stated that i still have another 1 week more holiday to go -.- Which means, my school reopens on the 11th of Jan, 1 more week of thinking where to go, omg. Just when i started feeling excited about school and they tells me that i have 1 more week, desperate to go school x_x Anyway, i bought a new school bag yesterday, which i didnt posted at my previous post. A back pack bag! :D Bought it at Hougang Mall yesterday and Felix and Qianyi accompanied me :D Back to the present and yah.. I received the letter with disappointment. But not long after, my Mum called me and told me that someone call my previous number. I called back and it was a surprise, really a big surprise for me. It's Ms Angel, my previous school - St. Andrew's Secondary's teacher. She was my Sec 1 (First Year), Sec 1 (Second year) and Sec 2's English teacher. For people who dont know i really got a bad record at my old school. I retained Secondary 1 for 2 years, carried on to Secondary 2 and then Secondary 3 and retained 1 more year at Secondary 3 and during the retained year of my Secondary 3 i quitted school. Part of the reason was because the freaking DM of my school, kept asking me to cut my hair and my hair is my life. So, i disobeyed and do what i think was right at that time - Fuck care the DM. The other part of the reason was because i hated the school so much that i really wanted to leave that hell place ASAP. I skipped school like almost everyday. Even if i was at school, i will be seen sleeping in the library, canteen, classes whatever places that i can sleep at. So, yeah. I remembered my father coming down to school and 3 of us - The DM, my father and i went in to a conference room at the general office. The DM talked to my father about my current situation and i was staring in space. Suddenly, my DM asked me - 'So, Benjamin.. We are not forcing you on anything. This is your choice - then he passed me a piece of paper, on top it wrote whether i agree to leave the school willingly or something like that and then he continued : Is this what you wanted? I have talked to your father and now it's your choice.' I freaking snatch the paper off the paper and looked at it again and signed my name on the piece of paper and walked right out of the office. This is all i remembered, i was out of control. And back to the phone call, i called and this once so familiar voice spoke to me. She called me to wished me a happy new year, saying that she knew that i have came out of RTC on March but told me that she was busy so she didnt had the time to call me. This teacher of mine had a short story behind it, when i started leading astray in school when i was 13+ and as a teacher of mine. She talked me a lot, always trying to pull me back into the right track, she was the only teacher in my school that i respected and listened to. She became my god-sister when i was 14, she pinned high hopes on me, hoping that one day i would change for the better, but everyday i just got worst. She always called and checked up on me, we would go out for lunch and dinner sometimes, i really looked at her like my real blood sister. I always wished for a younger sister or an older sister. A younger sister to dote on or an older sister to talked to and there she is, like an older sister to me. I always seek for advices from her and pouring out my troubles to her. Until i quitted school and we never contacted, i really regretted a lot. As she called me, we talked on the phone for an hour i guessed, talking about my past school days, how naughty i was in school. It makes me really happy after so many sad things that had happened recently. I really had a deep-down-my-heart talk to her, explaining to her what had happened to me recently. She really brought off some sadness in my heart, giving me advices like she always did in the past. I really thank god sometimes that from time to time there is always someone out of a sudden, no matter who, that will be comforting me. After i hanged up the phone with her, i felt better and decided that life isnt that bad actually. It's how we looked at life sometimes, what we do and how we react to certain obstacles of life. Sometimes somethings when it is not meant to be, we just have to learn to let go. Letting go is not always a bad choice, letting go means letting something new to come in. To hold onto something so tight and not let go will only sometimes destroy yourself. I really learned a lot today. Jie, thanks a lot, for the past few years of my secondary school life and today, you really helped me a lot. If there isnt you, i cannot imagine what kind of person i would be today. Actually, today my real purpose of posting is to take this time to thank you. I know you have my blog url now and i want to tell you for one last time - Ms Angel Lee, JIE! I love you, as a sister. THANK YOU :]