Okay, i cannot remember for all 5 days what had happened. So..

6th January 2010 -
Woke up very early, 9am plus i wake up already. Due to my early sleep the previous night, i slept at around 12am, i still remembered. Didnt plan to go out, planned to watch the show i'm watching now - 斗牛要不要, dont say i'm slow BECAUSE I DONT WATCH 偶像剧, in the past.. So, now.. I'm just trying to catch up :/ So yah, wanted to stay home to watch my show for the whole day but Felix MSNed me in the afternoon, asking me whether want to come out a not, at first i really dont wanna come out, because i really felt like staying at home alone but i still went Kovan with him for billiard. Met up with Felix and Qianyi at Kovan and we went to play billiard. Until around 8pm plus, we stopped and went to the nearby coffee shop for dinner. Ordered Hor fun as usual, i remembered the lady who bought the Hor fun for me lost control of the tray and dropped a 1 dollar coin and Felix and i were like helping her search for the 1 dollar, LOL. I still told Felix - 'Wtf, buy food from them still need to help them find their 1 dollar siah.' LOL, finished our dinner and Xiaoboy, Pauline and Jialing came. When we were leaving for Superbowl again, i found the freaking 1 dollar like 1 metre away from the table we sat! WAHAHAHA, so i took the 1 dollar and returned to lady. I remembered she told me, '哈哈，如果是别人，他们就收了那一块了' Then i told her ' 虽然一快是不多，但是始终不是我的啊.' Which suddenly let me think of something - 有些东西不是我的，就始终不会是我的. This incident really let me think of and related to something of my current situation. I kept looking for the 1 dollar, never gave up. I finally found the 1 dollar with joy but in the end i still handed the 1 dollar to the person who should really owned it. But i had really wondered what would the situation become if i hold onto the 1 dollar and kept it to myself instead of handing the 1 dollar away. Holding onto my determination tightly and hadnt give up so easily. Whatever it is the situation is set and nothing can change it already. I believed in fate so much in the past till now but i believed more in oneself now, fate sometimes dont choose the path we will walk but oneself can choose the path we would like to walk, choices are made by us. Seriously, so many things that had happened recently really made me learn new things in life. Okay, so after we left the coffee shop, we went outside Superbowl's arcade and smoked first. Thinking of what had happened at the coffee shop. Eyes looking either infront or on the floor. I cant bear to look at her because i know i will lose control and cry if i look at her. Memories will just flash back. So i kept distracting myself. Went up to play a game of billiard with Xiaoboy after smoking, she came up too. I kept trying to faked that i'm happy, the smile on my face. Wanted to show her that i can still be happy even without her. But after awhile, she left and the laughter and smile left my face. Really felt like crying as i looked at her back while she walked away. But i controlled and continue to play billiard with Xiaoboy. And continued to act as if i'm happy, not wanting to let Xiaoboy know that i'm unhappy. After billiard i had to rush home because it's like 9.55pm or 10pm already. So, i took cab home because Xiaoboy said that he wanted to wait for his friend to transfer his money to him at Kovan. When i entered the cab, i wanted to turned back and look at her again but i said NO to myself. What if i looked at her and i cant control my tears? So i entered the cab and went back home.

7th January 2010 -
Short day, woke up at 7pm plus. My mother woke me up or else i think i will wake up later. My mother kept knocking on my door repeatingly and when i opened the door. My mother asked me whether i'm okay a not, she thought that something bad had happened to me, because usually i dont wake up so late. Still feeling a little tired, but i still woke up and sat infront of my computer and soon Xiaoboy came to my house. Bath and everything and went down Macdonald to find his friend Jie ling and her cousin. They didnt wanna tag along for dinner so Xiaoboy and i went up Kou fu for dinner and went back down to Macdonald to find his friend. Sat there, not talking much because i dont know them and most of the time sitting there listening to them talk and disturb each other like 2 stupid fool, LOL. Free show, why dont wanna watch? Hahahaha.. Xiaoboy introduced me as 牛奶 to her friends and for the hundred and thousand times people give the same freaking reaction. The 'WHAT?!' reaction, because people usually thinks of the boy band Energy - One of the band member - 牛奶. I know i'm not as handsome as he is or handsome at all but PLEASE GIVE ME SOME FACE and stop giving me the WHAT?! face please x_x Okay, i so regretted being first called 牛奶 in the first place till now. But for so long and like 3/4 of my friends called me by that name made me now, so i will feel a little uncomfortable if someone call me by my real name, i'm serious. But i'm sure when i get older and when i'm leading my working life. I still gotta use my real name, i guess. Not really possible to use this name 牛奶 for long. Like as if when i'm 60 years old and people will still call me 牛奶. I think by then i can be called as 老牛 already, LOL. LOL, i know i like to elaborate my post which is why my post always look so long, but i really cant make myself stop. I just wanna type out whatever i'm thinking :D Okay, so back to where i was. Before going home, i went to buy cigarette and some tibits for my itchy mouth at night when i'm watching my show, CIGARETTE IS VERY IMPORTANT, because it is what keeps me refreshed during the time in my room at night alone. Went back home and mum gave me a number and told me that this girl called me on my old number but when i called back it says that her phone is not on or something, maybe she's a hi card user and her phone got no more money or whatever -.- So, i messaged her. So curious what would she be. Watched my 斗牛要不要 after. Then at 3pm plus, supposed to sleep but in the end i cant sleep so planned to not sleep until later, going out later and later at 4pm, i still need to report to my ACO. ALRIGHT, gotta go continue watch my show. BYE PEEPS! :D